Ramblings

Overworked, underpaid, tests, assignments, deadlines,lack of sleep, inadequate amounts of Ben 10 and Sponge Bob plus extended droughts make the perfect combination for a break down. The amount of toll I subjected myself too was just unbearable anymore. I could feel my body shutting down and wanting to go into an ultra long hibernate mode. With two tests this week, I just could afford that to happen.

On Sunday evening, I could just feel my entire body tightening up, the muscles were all like beginning to lock itself up and I had to do something about it. So, I called my regular masseur and ask him for an almost immediate appointment,  but unfortunately for me, he wasn't in town. Lucky though, he asked me to contact another friend of his who was available for a session that evening. 

After a massage that felt almost forever, I could feel my body loosening up - finally! The masseur was good, like really seriously damn good. And it was the first time I agreed for an out call massage as I don't normally like strangers coming over -  imagine the anxiety. He worked on my shoulder blades and lower back and every time he asked me if the amount of pressure applied was okay, I was like "I don't feel a thing". This is how bad I was.

After a very relaxing massage, which I wished didn't have to end, I was just chatting with the masseur over some tea that I got from Vietnam the last time around I was there. As we were talking and getting to know each other, he then told me somewhere along the dotted lines that I've got a lot of sexual frustration pent up. And did advice me to channel it properly else I would end up running in circles very often. LOLz!

So here's the thing, firstly, I've told myself no more one night stands - the slut-ing days are way over. Secondly, I don't really like Penang guys though I live here; which means a close to zero probability that I'll hook up with anyone given the benefit that I would forego my stand of no more one night stands. Third, with such a busy schedule, I don't even have that much time left to socialize, how on earth am I going to go out and get lucky. Due to my studies, I'm not in a favorable position to leave this state anytime soon and I don't really want to contemplate the thought of securing a new job. Adaptation would take a while and what if i'm not happy with the new environment, not like the current is any good, but....sigh...

Anyways, I slept like a baby that night, woke up really late yesterday, studied for a while and continued sleeping once more. I woke up just on time to go for my test, had a writing marathon for the test. I mean, who asks for five essay questions to be in answered in two and a half hours? Came back, replied a few emails and slept again.

Now I've to prepare for my finance paper this Thursday. A food trip to Malacca for the weekend seems to be a very sensible idea at this moment.

On another note, my big brother, Calvin, told me that I'm the third person on his roll that is using the date as a title and would very well be the second to use posting number if I decided to do that, I'll therefore go back to non sense making titles 'til I figure out a much lazier option for a title.