Scrambled

As I was cruising along with my Suzi earlier this morning making my way to KL, I could not help but think of our trip last weekend, the time spent in the car, all the silly non sense we were talking about and his constant reminder asking me ease off the gas. 

So fast a week has passed and its been since we've never met. It was sweet memories that feel bitter now, so to say. 

I told myself that I will just go have fun while I'm here, but somehow the thought of it now is making me feel like  its cheating. There was another round of argument earlier.

I don't even know what I'm rambling about. I should just tuck myself and call it a night

Back

I see my space again after what feels like eternity; checked my last ranting and it was ten days ago. I just had so much going on since that to find time by the end of the day to rant was the last thing in my mind. Most often than not, it would be slept over or shared with those who are closer through other means of communication. And speaking of close, for those who are on constant contact with me knew that I was out with him last weekend and I've been sailing through rough seas off late - just too much to handle.

For some odd reason, it feels like my life has taken a 180 degree turn since March this year. I got real busy with my studies, took on a new job in a completely different field, still surviving my brother's presence who drains me out daily, or almost. Then, when things were just falling in place he appeared and took everything to a different level of twist. 

The whole episode of letting someone into my life once more was just mind blowing scary. The ability to make decisions solely based on my personal interest was compromised and dealing with that required a lot of consideration and reconsideration. All this started taking too much of my time that twenty four hours a day didn't feel enough. 

I'm quite glad now that certain things have been made much clearer on the horizon. At least the guessing the game for many have things have ended and I know exactly where I stand. It's good to know your position so that you can then plan your direction and move forward accordingly. 

I'm off to KL tomorrow morning and I am so going to just have fun for the next two weeks. It's is going to be all about me and only me without anyone else. Selfish? Definitely yes! I don't give a fuck for anyone anymore.

Lined today up since to have some me time; did some window shopping. I now have a projected target to get me an entry level coupe very soon. 

It's time to be remember to be focus and harness the remains of my youth. 

Rubber smoking time soon but first, hook-ups in KL!   

Maximum Point?

I'm so fucking tired with my Economics lecturer. The crazy old man never ends with his assignments and it's one fucking after another, week after week and I've just reached the point of depletion. I have no energy left in me. 

Work load is huge, dealing with my brother is another uphill task. On top of that, I've to deal with this old man whom I wonder if has successfully failed to realize that he is dealing with a bunch of working adult who have permanent full time jobs. Who the fuck in a right mind would give one assignment each week, every week for the past god knows how many freaking weeks.

Thanks to this idiot who has been taking up so much of time, I ended up totally neglecting the other subject and left the assignment of that to the very last minute. Knowing that most weren't having enough time, many decided to share our answers and what it really came down to over the last twenty-four hours was a mere circulation of answers and everyone was just practically copying one another just to have things done. What made matters worse was that not only were the stack of assignments due today, but there was a test as well and I barely had any time left to event think of studying.

I am now mentally prepared to score a whopping 0 for this paper as I almost spend and hour staring blank. FUCK!

To make matters worse, he isn't well himself and there was barely anything I could do to make him feel any better. I just feel so unworthy currently. 

Dammit! I hate these stupid feelings lingering around me. Hope he gets better soon.

I was out with my manager earlier this afternoon on our way to visit a client when she was digging out information about me - why do they do this post employment? 

Don't you have enough fun digging out information during the interview process?

Anyways, I think it's better for her to know more about me as well so she would not bug me and give me my required space. But she sure does have the impression that I'm one heck of a nut case and she may be silently regretting as to why the hell did she decide to offer me the post.

The only plus side to the day was wrapping up a deal for a quarter of a million with a client who has been pledging his undivided loyalty to the men in purple for the last six years. I'm sure there will be many people out there who is going to begin hating me again; like what happened in my first job. But hey, it's an open market isn't it. And the look on my managers face - priceless.

It was so clear that she wanted to know what the fuck did I say to the client yesterday when I got in contact with him and bringing the business over today. The only thing she uttered was you do lap everything in front of you, don't you? And I was like no meat shall be left wasted. If only she got what I meant....LOLz.

Time to get back to complete another assignment for the bloody old man. Aaargh!

Sugar Daddy

So I was chatting with my bitches (though I know they would unanimously deny this, but the truth is always out there :P ) last night and somewhere somehow along the conversation the topic of sugar daddies came out. As we were talking about it and deciding who would source the daddies and how we could bitch-fuck them whilst sucking out all the dosh from their pockets and putting up being seen with sagging potatoes (I know I am vain) it reminded me of the couple I met in HCM when I was there last year.

I met this Aussie guy who was prolly in his 50's going out with a rather cute Vietnamese guy (I openly admit having a thing for Vietnamese) who was in his early 30's. We were having a breakfast conversation and when the same topic came about. His point of view was that they are his sons. Like how sick is that? You accept them as your son, but you boink them non-stop afterwards? Yuck! 

And what's worse, he has his boy toys in almost every South East Asian country and they all openly know each other and are okay to be in such a relationship. How low would anyone go just to get free stuff? I don't think I could be in such a position at any given point of time.

Just the thoughts give me cold disgust shivers. Ma bitches, I'm dropping out of the idea, you guys can go ahead..HAHAHA :)

He is not around this weekend and I suddenly don't know how to spend my time. The weather is killing me and my stupid brother successfully fucked my day up-side down thanks to waking me up at four in the morning and spoiling my entire days plan.

Aaargh! I just miss him so much.....

Anata ga i naku te sabishii desu...

Go Fuck Yourself!

Here's the deal - if you think you're subscribed to the best religion in the world, go fuck yourself mate!

Keep all your hippocracy  and shove it up your ass. Do not, ever,come and talk to me about these things unless you are well prepared to answer all my questions and you preach what you say.

See,  if you can come and tell me that everyone is equal and is loved the same by your so called god, then what the fuck are you crapping to me about homosexual and bisexual are sinners. 

Dude, where the fuck is your brains?! 

Do you in your fucking right mind think that someone would want to purposely choose to live this lifestyle and go through so much of shit from wankers like you? 

Have you ever read anything about genetics? Or do you even know what it means to begin with? 

All you probably know is to fuck around town and you most likely married the bitch that you shot your sperm into and had no way to get out of the mess you created. Hence your offspring being delivered in less than nine months from the day you got married. 

Plus, don't also pretend that you're no sinner. I know that your shagging around town while your wife is running the family. I am a much better person than you as I know how to keep my pants around my waist and I don't go probing my dick into any single orifice that is available.

And yea, I'd rather go to hell where the rest of the gay people are as I for sure know that it'll be a better place than the so called heaven where you bastards would go. At least we love someone based on a humanity level irrespective of their gender unlike you retards. And dare you come and give me this fucking bullshit. Bare in mind, you were only spared because of your kid. It would not have been nice for him to see his father being trashed in public and you'd for sure not have any respect left.

So, fucking mind your own business and never, I repeat, never ever try crossing my line for you'll be sorry.

We are much stronger people that despite living with you wankers, being discriminated and unaccepted, we still go about living our lives. And yea, as much as it's so called disgusting for you to see two people of the same sex being intimate, it is the same for us to see two people of the opposite sex being intimate as well.

Remember, there are always two sides to a coin and what goes around comes around. You may have been lucky that you were always able to pick on those who are not vocal or daring, but today was not your day. You only got the tip of the iceberg and said, go thank your son else, you'd been fucked well and proper. 

Keep your religious bull to yourself! Seriously!

Time of The Year

For those who know me would actually know very well that I work only on the very last minute. It's quite a rare occasion that I get things done earlier, especially true if it involves money going out of my wallet. 

For those who are working, this is the time of the year when you fret the most, seeing your hard earned money getting wasted being sucked out as tax. See, I don't mind paying taxes if I knew that my money was put to good used. But instead, in this forsaken country, the money only gets squandered by the cronies of those in power and it rarely makes its way to for any good cause. Hence my unhappiness to pay taxes.

So anyways, I was talking with him (I so need to get him a public domain friendly name) earlier via whatsapp just checking on how his headache was subsiding after spending an afternoon with me. I wonder what impression he has on me know after having this for a conversation.

try to get some rest early if you can. you had a long day

you too had a long day. you should sleep earlier than me cause you slept late last night and need to travel tomorrow (so understanding - damn happy. he knew I got home close to five in the morning and only had very minimal sleep)

i got reserve energy..lolz. need to do my tax form, then sleep d

haha. you still haven't do ah? i remember that day i remind you like two weeks ago (brownie gone...)

no ler...i totally forgot about it until earlier when my friend ask. if i need to pay money ti the govt, i can easily forget...lolz

That just ended there, I wonder what's installed for me as there are certain things that I'm supposed to do and I have yet to do it and he has already asked me a few times. :(

This was still okay, I then met PurpleTurtle online and this is how it went

how you doing today rugrat?

reality hit.need to do my tax - dammit

hahaha.you get the form last week and haven't done anything?

where got last two weeks, the other day only what.

hahaha, no wonder you so stressed to finish it. just started to do it?

setting up the printer to print the form. hopefully my printer got ink. i never use it dunno how many years already..lolz

shit. you just gonna start PRINT it????????????

I'm so happy it was only question marks and not exclamation marks..LOLz

As I was filling the form after printing it, I got a call from my brother

where are you?

at home - doing my tax returns

you still haven't done it? you've been talking about it ever since

yea i know..and you have been dragging me out every night. where got time?

when is it due?

tomorrow

.... ( I so wished I had seen the look on his face - it would have a been epic)

It's finally done and I'm happy I can get some money in return. However, I'm still sad that I have to pay tax.

And, let's hope that next year would be a better year where I'll get my form done much earlier, though I doubt it. :)

Sex Spots

The other night, mOnkeybOy, PurpleTurtle (hah! you get this for calling me rugrat :P)and I were chatting on skype when I was sent a picture of the dining table bought. My first reaction upon seeing the table was like it looks sturdy and I went on with the owner your dining table nice lah, strong enough to have sex on it ah?? :P.  

That conversation took its course,but I then started thinking of the most boring places you can have have sex or as some people prefer the term, make love, at home. Here is my list of the most to the least boring place:

1. Bedroom - On the bed? Like seriously, I'd rather be sleeping.
2. Living Room - It's so yesterday. And the couch ain't the most comfortable place. Plus I'm not getting any          bodily fluids that leave a stain on it. I entertain too much at home.
3. Kitchen counter - This is acceptable fun. Imagination has a chance to go wild
4. Dining Table - mONnkeybOy, sex and food does assimilate well :P
5. Bathroom - Just make sure you have enough and proper petroleum based lubricants. Things can go really wild under hot water and a steamy shower room.

It's time for me to make my way to Hard Rock for a couple of drinks with some friends.

And on another note, when were out having dinner last night, there was this family dining on the table opposite. It was so nice to see the parents having dinner together with their son and his partner. But poor boy, he looked stressed trying to impress and not fuck things up in front of his partner's parents. A very nice sight nonetheless. And there was this so ever loud barbaric couple sitting on the next table that was just so loud and totally out of place. Morons!

Restaurants here should really look into NOT allowing certain quarters into their dining area like what MAS did by not allowing, was it kids or babies (?) into their first class cabin - the only good thing the airline has ever done, to ensure the rest of the guests get a decent stress free dinner with proper ambience.